Blue October.
I LOVE BLUE OCTOBER!
Hate Me.
I have to block out thoughts of you so I donx92t lose my head, They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed, Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that Ix92m alone, Playing movies in my head, that make a porno feel like home, There’s a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain, An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again? And will you never say that you love me, just to put it in my face? And will you never try to reach me? It is I that wanted space.
Hate me today, Hate me tomorrow, Hate me so you can finally see whatx92s good for you.
Ix92m sober now for 3 whole months itx92s one accomplishment that you helped me with, The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I wonx92t touch again, In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night, While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight, You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate.
Razorblade.
[Chorus] Sing with me! A brief bout with a razorblade cut me, I freaked out, thinking people didn’t love me, I watched closely as the you I knew forgot me, In letting go, I am so proud of what I’ve done.
Calling you.
There’s something I can’t quite explain, I’m so in love with you, You’ll never take that away, And if I’ve said it a hundred times before, Expect a thousand more, You’ll never take that away.
Ugly Side.
I must have sneezed, On knees I freeze, I mean I just choked up, Somehow I slept, I dream, I mean, I dreamt of nothing, Able to breathe, A sweet relief, Now that you’re here with me, A northern degree, Dove into me, Now I’m recovering.
Come In Closer.
The first born, my heart will call Truly, A God-like boy of the sky, The fog hissed away like a movie,
And serpents go home for the night, The thundercloud rain hits the freeway, The clowns put on makeup for show, The nightfall, my skin crawl kind of evening, And how the wind she blows, How the wind she blows.
Do You Ever Wonder.
A scar was sewn, A drop of blood was saved for making wine, Still no repent, On how you crumble when I shake, A mental jaw was used, To pry me from this wrecking bond, The sad detail is all the promises I make.
Fairy Tale.
She’s a magnetic girl, That I hardly even know. So this is not another love song. Just a list of things that I should know, And everyone should know that: 1. You got to take it kind of slowly. 2. You got to hurry up and make your move, 3. You got to tell her how youx92re feeling, 4. You got to be the perfect gentleman.
Inner Glow.
I’m like a storm cloud eager when you go out, Calm again, I’ll ask permission for the wrong to win, Drop the bomb and get your story out and get it on, In a haze the beginning of your days, Gonna fall down, Got to get back up but at your own pace, Got to fill your cup and find the way, Out of your own maze, Yeah boy what you said now.
Black Orchid.
Empty bed and all of the sheets are gone, They’re wrapped around me and you. All is quiet but the drop of a gun. I want to belong…to someone… But maybe life’s not for everyone. Have you ever been so lonely, No one there to hold? Pull me in or disown me, And then climb inside. My arms are open wide. Have a look inside. It is not that I am scared to learn, Why I’m empty inside. hold my hand or show some concern, If I live or die. My eyes are open wide. Help me look inside.
I hear the water drip from the faucet. It’s sweetly falling in tune. I’m gently closing the closet. I fall to the floor, and crawl to my room. The thought of ending it soon… Just let me sleep in my room.
Hear me cry! cry! cry! I hear a knock at the front door. Don’t come in! I try to look at you. But I can’t stop shaking. Leave me alone. Just go away. Mother I’m so scared.
